Med changes

So hurting....... this pain is nearly unbearable...... the cdc our lovely government decided to make me choose between my mental medications and my physical needs. I had to choose my mental meds to keep. I know, I know, take it one day at a time , but how? How does a person live with such agonizing pain daily? What we wake up to, what we go to bed to.  This sucks!!

definition of pain

If words were enough to describe what it's like to live in chronic pain- I think suffering & torture would sum it up! :/

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Losing my life

Ouch ouch ouch! I'm so tired of hurting.  So tired of pain.  Wish I could do what normal people do.  But instead, I bite my tongue, see all I lost and won't have again and take my meds and lay down for a while- losing precious time.  I hate Fibro and how debilitating it is to live, or rather not live!! :/

Fibro's Grip

Having fibro is not fun.... It plain outright SUCKS!!! I am one of those that tries to be politically correct, I think it's cuz we don't want others to see our pain either, feel like it's never ending and sometimes I feel like I just whine and complain, hard not to focus on it when the pain is so consuming!! So honestly, my first thought,, having fibro sucks!! BAD!!!! I am currently in a group about grieving and loss with a slant geared toward depression. I went to my first group and TISSUE PLEASE!!! I cried and cried and ohhh, it was VERY emotional, yet I feel I need to grieve the loss of who I was and working on acceptance of where I am and that fibro is not going anywhere, can be managed, but it will never go fully away! ARG!! I want want want to be well.... If I could will it away I would, and I've gone through that, and the fibro and it's pain is still here, in my body.... It sounds dramatic, but if you've ever seen or watched the X-men movies, when Wolverine gets injected with titanium and when he goes to extend his new claws, he can feel the excruciating pain as the titanium comes out of his skin.... My pain is the titanium and it is gut wrenching at times as the fibro's grip on my body, inside, from the top of my head to the tip of my toes... AND IT SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!!!! Then there's the stigma that my house being more messy makes me lazy, or me sleeping in and needing a day of rest. People that have never dealt with or even had some type of chronic illness don't seem to understand. What comes so easy to the "regular world" is really hard for me! For anyone suffering and/or in pain, life is not the same. The world looks different, and it is different! I am tired and frustrated and tired of being sick and not feeling good. Tired of the pain. Tired of hurting! I know we all go through worse times than others, and right now, it has been an emotionally hard time facing the loss of who I was, the fact of who I am, and then where I'm at cuz of the fibro and my crummy health. I just started a group to help with the loss and it is hard, but I have to face it and deal with it so I can come to some sort of peace with it. One day at a time is all I can say lately....

Slow road to recovery

‎2012, a new year, another year, and one that I hope brings more healing,not just physically, but also emotionally as well.... I had a surgery go TERRIBLY wrong, internal bleeding led to infected hematoma.... several surgeries, a pic line of heavy duty iv anti-biotics, and weeks turned into months later, I have slowly been trying to reach my pre-surgery self... It was about 4 years ago in February that I got my pic line out, my doc said a normal person it would take a couple years to bounce back after all my body had been through, but with having fibro, it would take 4-5 years.... that was back in 08, now, is 2012, 4 years later, and the house is better, JUST FINISHED my kitchen, the kids and I are good and emotionally connected and have wonderful relationships with friends an family... the little things like finishing my kitchen, laundry, Walmart shopping, may seem small to "healthy" people, but when a person has fibro or any other chronic pain ailment, it is an "accomplishment" to do what most people take forgranted.... I am hoping this year is better and look forward to warm weather around the corner!

20 things not to say to an ill person

#1 – You look so good today! 

#2 – You just need to get out of the house more

#3 – If you stop thinking about it, the pain will go away 

#4 – You should just pray harder 

#5 – You must not want to get better if you won’t try this 

#6 – When I was your age I didn’t have the luxury of being sick

#7 – You’re sick again??

#8 – I wish I could just sit around all day

#9 – No pain, no gain!

#10 – I’d be sick too if I saw doctors as much as you do 

#11 – I have this juice that is working wonders…

#12 – You must still have sin in your life

#13 – If you got a job you’d have something else to think about – see more 

#14 – Your illness is caused by stress 

#15 – You can’t be in that much pain. Maybe you just want attention

#16 – What have you done to make God so mad at you?

#17 – There are easier ways to get attention

#18 – It’s not good for your kids to always hear you whining – see mo

#19 – When are you going to get rid of that cane?

#20 – I’m so glad to see you out and about feeling all better

*The original url for it is: http://invisibleillnessweek.com/2009/06/19/20-things-not-to-say-to-an-ill-person/